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01:25 pm
[Link] | Why the hell can't I be more motivated and responsible? I always lose everything ex. BuckID, keys, etc.
I am 21 years old, when am I going to be an adult? I need to find a job and I right now I also really want to be close to my friends but they are sorta, well busy. I would also like to find a boyfriend and I am working on it, but I am picky and it can be really difficult to really get to know new people. I just really want people to like me and I really want my dreams to come true NOW!! I am impatient and my impatience makes me depressed at times, but I am not going to give up :)
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09:30 am
[Link] | I know I haven't updated in a long time. So I thought it was time for an entry. I am working at the library in Portsmouth this summer, My first job ever!! I am staying with my grandparents this summer which is going pretty well since it is too complicated to really stay with either of my parents with their current divorce complexities. I miss Columbus and all of my friends alot!!! It is pretty boring down here, I can't wait untill next summer, after I graduate I have made up my mind I am going to visit Italy before I go to grad school. I may possibly even do some history study abroad there.
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12:26 am
[Link] | Last night I went clubbing with my friend Reema. We usually go out a least once a week and it is always a lot of fun. When I am dancing I feel free and uninhibited. I love Columbus and OSU a part of me really wishes this quarter did not have to end so soon. I hope that this summer turns out ok. I go into the summer knowing that it probably won't be as fun as when I am at school but that is ok. I am going to get a job and learn what that is all about, which is important and maybe will give me some confidence. I am still not sure where I will be staying in Scioto County. I may stay with my grandparents or possibly get an apartment in Portsmouth. With my parents divorce it is just too complicated to stay with my mom or dad. It is kinda hard for me to adjust to summer because I become really attached to my friends here at OSU. I feel pretty certain that this summer should still be better than my last one when I was so bored I was about to go crazy, and next summer Italy... that is my goal!!!
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07:47 pm
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Part of this really makes sense
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Jenn+ took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Longs for a tender and sympathetic bond and for a ..."
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06:04 pm
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Perspective
Today I was thinking about how political ideologies and even certain beliefs and personality characteristics are learned and have a lot to do with a persons background. In that case it really doesn't make a lot of sense to me that there are so many political arguments and criticisms in our society where people just waste time calling each other stupid. It would make more sense if people who did not see eye to eye would just try to give others a sense of the other side of the spectrum and just why they feel the way they do. I also don't believe people always fit in neat little categories, people do have tendencies, but in general I think that most people are more alike than they would often like to admit.
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03:38 pm
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jenn took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Feels the existing circumstances are hostile and i..."
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10:56 am
[Link] | Yesterday was insane. I got depressed in my Italian class because I am doing poorly and may even have to drop the class, I don't know. I ended up crying in class. Friday night I went to a frat party, which is my first frat party I have ever been to. I drank like four beers and just danced around , I was a little drunk but not like completely wasted. One of my friends drank a lot though and that scared me. I realized you just have to be careful because a lot of those guys are just trying to hook up with random girls and that is certainly not something I ever want to be involved in. I don't think I am going to drink much again for a long while especially at parties where I don't know many people.
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10:47 am
[Link] | I am glad to be back in Columbus, I get bored at home and I missed all of my friends.
Classes I am taking:
Italian 102
Med. and Rennaissance Studies 212
History 531.01 Jewish Messiahs
I like all my classes ok so far, but I know Italian is probably going to be my hardest.
Current Mood:  groggy
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12:55 am
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No More Finals
I took My last final Thursday, which was Italian at 7:30 in the morning, which was way earlier than I usually wake up. I know I am really going to miss Jamie and Carina when they leave. I am really blessed to have such great friends. I think I have become a lot more out going within the last year, I just used to be really shy and insecure and I am just glad that I have met so many awesome friends who have helped me gain confidence.
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07:00 pm
[Link] | Thanksgiving was pretty good, I got to see my family which is good. I am however glad to be back, Columbus is just better for me. I get very bored at home. My Mom got me an ipod for my birthday, which is pretty cool. I still get concerned about my mom and stuff because she is still angry at my Dad and is not really motivated, she just holds resentment in her heart which is not healthy for anyone. I think I am going to take classes this summer and stay in Columbus.
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12:38 pm
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Uncertain
I feel very stupid sometimes and I still struggle with confidence. Very often I am clumsy and disorganized which I know is not good. Deep down I really do want people to like me for who I am. I want to be able to be independent but that is hard for me because I'm an only child and I have been spoiled to the point that I don't know how to rely on my self. At the same time I know I am blessed to have good friends and a family that loves me. I am not really a competetive person and I don't believe that people fit into neat little categories.
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06:06 pm
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Forever 21
I really had fun Tuesday for my birthday party. I was just really glad to spend time with my friends, I LOVE YOU GUYS. Now that I am 21 it is nice to know that I can go out and have a drink if I want but I really don't want to overdo it. I am very glad I now have a computer that works (so I can type that 10 page history paper that's due next Tuesday!) I love college so much .. Even though I am a junior I am in no hurry to graduate, I want to go on to grad. school and visit Italy.
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02:56 pm
[Link] | I am so glad I finally have the internet again! My computer had been messed up for weeks with viruses and spyware. My classes are going pretty well I just need to spend more time reading.
Current Mood:  tired
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03:04 pm
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JUST ONE WEEK ..
I am so excited for move-in day next Sunday. I have missed Columbus and all my friends for the last three months! I talked to my new roomate Mindy on the phone and she seems really nice. I will be staying on the third floor of scholars E. again (so come visit ok!)
Being at home all summer has just given me way too much free time on my hands with not alot to do. Still I am glad that I have gotten some time to visit my parents and grandparents. Because I am an only child and grandchild I am super close to them. I am concerned with my mom though because she gets so depressed which has a lot to do with the fact that she holds on to a lot of anger/bitterness in her heart especially toward the divorce.
On a happier note I am still really psyched about coming back to Columbus.
Current Mood:  good
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10:38 am
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Had About Enough ...I miss OSU
I just really want to get back to Columbus soon (I know I only have a month but still). Home is just extremely boring for me. I love my family, and I know I am very blessed to have them. There is just not much for me to do here because: 1. I still have no drivers license, 2. I don't see my friends often 3. I have no job. I pretty much spend my time at home with my mom, trying to help clean her house. I do get to see my Dad about once or twice a week which I really enjoy. My parent's divorce thing is still weird, but hopefully things will be easier in time. I just really wish my mom weren't so bitter and negative about everything.
Current Mood:  okay
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02:12 pm
[Link] | Monday was a good day! I went to Columbus with some of my friends from home to a drum corp. marching band competition at Crew stadium. This was a good thing (I know I have been bored lately and really missing Columbus!) We also went out to dinner at the Hunan House(which is a very excellent Chinese restaurant) Anyhow it pretty fun and better than staying in the house all day.
Current Mood:  lazy
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07:55 pm
[Link] | Alright, I am really missing Columbus. I totally hope I don't sound like a freak, I know sometimes it might seem like I have absolutely no life whatsoever. You just have to understand if I had my way I probably wouldn't be home for the summer and I mean I do have some friends here at home, but I don't really see them often. I don't mind having time to myself (I am used to it being an only child)but this summer is kinda boring because I only get out of this house once or twice a week.
Sometimes I jus t feel very misunderstood, I know I am very blessed, I have just been very spoiled and sheltered my whole life, and I have alot of insecurities and low self confidence. This year I have tried to become more social, but I am not even so sure about this (I don't want to seem overbearing)
I am confused about alot right now (my faith has been challenged alot) and I feel like I have become somewhat rebellious. I just want independence and for people to like me for who I truly am....I know here's the pouting yet again
Current Mood:  lonely
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05:29 pm
[Link] | I have been reading the book "A Man Named Dave" it is a very good book by Dave Pelzer (Who also wrote "A Child Called It" and "The Lost Boy") Anyways I found a really good quote "...No matter waht happens to you, it doesn't give you an excuse to blame others or wallow in self pity." I agree although I do have a bad tendancy to wallow in my own self-pity.
Current Mood: mellow
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09:07 pm
[Link] | Ok so today I got some kind of random crank call on my cell phone. These little girls called and claimed to be Mary Kate and Ashley, I said who is this and yeah right and hung up the phone, They then left two messages on my phone (one in which foul language was used) and this girl claimed that I dated her brother last week (totally false, I know I haven't been dating anyone) anyways I guess maybe they had the wrong phone number. It is just really kinda sad though because they only sounded like little girls on the phone. They really should not use that kind of language at their age and I mean if you are gonna crank call someone at least get the right person.
Current Mood: mellow
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12:31 am
[Link] | I was searching for on-line websites to help me get a jump start to learning Italian. (I am signed up to take Italian 101 this fall.)hopefully I can visit Italy sometime before I graduate.
I spend most of my time here at home with my mom which is not all bad because I can read and get on the internet but I do have to help clean and its not like I can really go anywhere because I don't yet have a drivers license. Unfortunatly CVS hasn't called me back so because they have no hours but thats ok.
Current Mood: tired
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